I keep asking myself,  My God and my guides "What is my next move?",  Its a question that has lingered for a while now. 

Whats the next career choice?

Should I concider more of the same as what I am doing,  the answer I think is no,  I find helpdesk work fulfilling to a point,  getting someone's computer connected to the internet or getting the website for the company hosted all fulfilling to a point,  you get thanks but then your on to the next frustrated, upset, confused or downright mad customer and the cycle starts again.  When I started here I was told about a previous Techie who got to the point where he shouted at customers,  I never thought I would get to that point but everyday there is someone I want to shout at and thats not helping me in my home life,  On Monday my wife Michelle who I love dearly bore the brunt of my moodswings so I ask the question again in relation to my career. "What is my next move?"

How can I relieve the stress at home?

I think taking care of my happiness would be a good start,  sounds a little selfish at first but If I do things to improve my attitudes then I am better equipt to help those around me,  lately I have days I just what to stay in bed and that helps no one.

A job that allows me to also be at home a little more and does not leave me so drained would be a start,  its time to renevergise myself,  Im going to Mens Bible Camp this weekend and I am hoping that will lift my spiritual self and give me the determination I need to make some decisions.  Ive always believed if you dont like the situation your in then take steps to change it but I am not acting on this belief enough to move forward.  Its driving me crazy.  I also feel I want to contribute more,  to society, to my home life, to my family,  to my education, to my character, every day I dont do at least one of these is a day lost and that makes me sad.

I have some irons in the fire but the fire grows cold,  I need to throw some fuel on the fire and grow,  push my boundaries.